Opening up about the life of a comedic influencer Mr. Sitdet also known as Purple Horse Powerpuff Gay spoke on the program "Let's Talk" about his life's journey of struggling by all means, turning bullying and obstacles into driving forces. He redefined success at age 30, saying he now has no particular goals other than to keep working. He admitted that he would not regret dying today, having already arranged his family's inheritance and prepared backup plans for potential downturns, understanding the industry's realities.
Behind his positive energy and work readiness techniques?
Purple Horse: I feel that on workdays, I must give my all energetically. Once home, I switch myself off. Almost every time when I wake up, I get myself ready by playing on my phone or starting makeup. For example, today or recently, I livestreamed, talked with people, and watched to energize myself. First, it helps me wake up; second, it makes me feel okay so my mind can think clearly. When livestreaming on TikTok, many people comment—sometimes strange, sometimes confused, teasing, or complimenting. This makes me think about how to respond, what to say next, and how to play along with their questions, which helps my mind stay active. So when I go to work, I have energy and a clear mind.
His journey, changes, and carefulness in life?
Purple Horse: Since then until now, my personality hasn’t changed much, whether on or off camera. I haven't forced myself to change because this is who I am. Being Purple Horse continuously makes me more cautious now, like when meeting people and choosing my words. I'm blunt and often tease or joke, but some people don’t connect with that and think I’m harsh. Many who see me on streams or clips wonder why I’m so different in person—quiet and polite. They ask me to scold them or why I’m not dressed in drag on my days off when I’m just filming eating clips and then going home. Some may think I’m aloof, but I’m not; just try smiling at me first. If I’m sitting somewhere as Purple Horse, who would dare look at me? I also avoid eye contact because I fear people's stares. Some say I seem distant in person, but really I’m not; just smile at me and I’ll respond.
Handling toxic comments on social media?
Purple Horse: Before, I would respond playfully, teasing back. Now, I still tease but sometimes choose not to read or just block. Nowadays, anyone can be an influencer or public figure on social media and express anything. Recently, a third grader sent harsh teasing messages using cartoon profile pictures. I had to check with another phone because the kid was wearing Ben 10, Elsa, or traditional Chinese costumes. Social media spans all ages and genders, so I feel responding harshly or randomly is risky. People capture screenshots only when we're upset or cursing. Notice that in drama news, they only show the moment when emotions flare up, ignoring the context. Then others criticize without knowing the whole story. I want to be the first Thai to stop cursing back, so I mostly stay quiet and block.
Life turning point from renting a cheap room to buying an eight-figure house outright?
Purple Horse: Before buying this house, I had almost no money, only about 1,000 to 2,000 baht in my account. It was during COVID, and I had quit my job. Influencer work hadn’t grown yet, so I discussed with Loren and Pee Mai about upcoming jobs. One job saved me that month. I lived in a very cheap dorm near Saphan Khwai, about 2,800 to 3,000 baht, a small room. Then I became known through clips, livestreams, and activities with the Powerpuff Gay group. I started moving to better dorms but was hesitant to buy a house because owning one in Bangkok meant settling down here.
I wasn’t sure about myself because I’d been in Bangkok nearly ten years, living month to month, dealing with credit card debts, rent, and car loans. When money came, I was cautious, asking if a purchase was beneficial or not. Even when I bought branded items, it was because I never had them before. Also, when going to events, I wanted to carry something nice. Pee Mai advised me to just buy it and, if needed, sell it later.
One day, as work increased, I brought my younger sister to live with me. I worried about her safety since she’s a woman and lived in a separate dorm room. I worried if someone followed her when she went out for food or shopping. I thought I needed to buy a house. Before buying, I had already paid off family debts.
Pride in clearing family debts?
Purple Horse: When my work started growing, I had over a million baht, but the family debt was 800,000 baht. As a kid who never had more than 40,000 baht in my account, seeing 40,000 was huge. When I finally had over a million baht, I was so happy I cried. At 30, having a million baht was a joy. Then my family asked me to pay off a 800,000 baht debt to the Bank for Agriculture and Agricultural Cooperatives on my grandmother’s farmland. I took out that money, leaving just a few hundred thousand baht. I paid it all to clear the debt, so now I have no debts.
Now I’m debt-free. Being free of debt is the best. Debt causes stress and negative energy, making us unhappy. Clearing debts brings happiness to the family. Then I withdrew money to renovate my father’s worn-down house, leaving only about 200,000 baht. I told myself it’s okay and focused on working hard, even when sick and hospitalized, continuing work after discharge.
Managing responsibilities and family members?
Purple Horse: Some might think it’s a trap of filial obligation, but for me, I can handle it. If I couldn’t, I’d say so. Right now, I provide monthly allowances for everyone—my sister, father, grandmother, mother. I pay all household expenses: water, electricity, pets, food, transportation. We have agreements in the family about chores and responsibilities. For example, if I do something, others help with something else, like looking after the house. Parents listen and avoid excessive gambling because they know I provide for them. They trust me.
Still, I carry a heavy load. I’ve thought if I fall, others would fall too. I’m the one paying salaries, supporting relatives who face money troubles, sometimes lending large sums. But they must repay me. Some relatives borrowed money and never returned; I cut ties. Same with friends—if they don’t repay, I move on. I lend without expecting, but if they don’t return, I let it go; it’s just money, not loyalty.
Changing definition of success and inheritance planning for family?
Purple Horse: It’s changed. Success was defined as caring for my family, which I’ve achieved. Now I have no goals, just continuing until I die. I’ve thought about death and don’t regret it because I’ve done all I wanted, including dividing assets. I can die peacefully. Having money made me more cautious and thoughtful about life planning.
Is asset allocation like inheritance planning?
Purple Horse: Yes. After paying debts, I requested one plot to be under my name for my father to live on. My grandmother had four children and mortgaged all land at the bank, but I redeemed it and asked for one plot for my father. I also paid off grandmother’s debts. On my mother’s side, since my parents divorced, I just built and bought a new house for her, giving it directly without paperwork. In Bangkok, this house will go 100% to my sister when I pass. Everything is settled—father, grandmother, mother, sister. I can die peacefully. If I go, I just want to take my pets with me.
If you could go back to the time you were bullied, what would you tell or hug your younger self?
Purple Horse: I wouldn’t hug. Being coddled isn’t my style; I was never spoiled. I’d tell myself to use those words as motivation. My name comes from teasing—my face is long like a mango, so people put mango pictures on clips and teased me about it or called me a 'horse.' I combined 'horse' and 'purple' to turn weaknesses into strengths, telling myself to be strong and believe in what I want to do. I remember as a child I was ambitious, wanting to leave that place.
I appeared on many shows. I was left alone at home from grade 5 or 6. My family had two homes in Yasothon and Ubon. When they moved to Ubon, they didn’t take me because they feared I’d be influenced badly or struggle adjusting to new friends, but they took my younger sibling and relatives. I was left alone in that house, feeling hurt and wondering why they left me behind. I was only in grade 5 or 6, had to sleep with the light on because I was scared of ghosts, especially as the house was near a temple where funerals happened. That experience oddly helped me become brave.
I always thought I had to finish school and leave that place. I didn’t want to stay alone. If no choice, I’d endure, graduate, then move elsewhere. At the end of grade 6, I finally left to study in Ubon with my aunt and brother. Even today, if I see bullying messages, I still feel something but no longer worry or get anxious like before. Now I see them and just accept, as I said earlier.
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