She recently introduced a relationship with a handsome foreign boyfriend, but recently "Punpun Sutatta Udomsilp" opened up about this love on the show 3 Zaap, saying it has ended. She was so heartbroken she cried until her face was swollen, unable to look at anyone for fear of crying, so she resorted to intense exercise to feel better and be able to eat.
"I'm single now. This time, I plan to stay single as long as possible. The nickname 'idol at finding a boyfriend' isn't really a good one because I went to pray for spiritual help. What happened was a fortune teller predicted I'd meet someone; I said it publicly and it worked.
But the second time I went, I told the deity, 'If it's not the right one, please bounce him away.' The deity said the time was up and actually bounced him away. I thought that would save time for both of us and allow me to move on to something better."
Is there a special ritual to ask the deity? "Yes. When I went to pray, I brought a compass, a globe, a watch, roses, and a GPS—each having meaning. The compass helps the soulmate find me at the right time, no matter where in the world, so we can meet. This tip came from a fortune teller.
When I went for spiritual help at the Trimurti shrine in front of CentralWorld, the first time was simple, just buying roses. The second time, I asked the fortune teller if there was a trick to share with everyone. He advised placing the compass, watch, and 128 roses together. So, I went again. This time, the fortune teller said to say, 'If he is right, please let him stay with me; if not, please bounce him away.' I already had a boyfriend then, and it worked (laughs). Actually, the fortune teller gave advice for people already in relationships to say something like this."
What made you seek spiritual help again? "Before the second prayer, I think everyone experiences that uneasy feeling when starting a relationship. We turn to the sacred with hope."
Besides the Trimurti deity, have you sought other spiritual help? "Besides the Trimurti deity, the Naga Cave is where I have the strongest faith at that time. The rest are ordinary."
Recently you posted that life needs a goal, but Plan A is to have a family? "Everyone wants a family. When I was young, I thought I'd be married by 26 and have kids by 27. But now, I just let it be. Life is dark and complicated; if it happens, it happens. Don't pressure the future to be perfect; it's exhausting."
If someone wants to court Punpun, what's most important? "First, I want someone who is not a womanizer. That’s very important to me. Having a boyfriend who flirts and chases other women would be stressful. Second, he should be mature and understand life. I think I'm somewhat mature for my age and understand living with someone. Third, he must be very compatible with me—not just a lover but a friend and life partner. A bit romantic, but just sweet enough. No need for surprises like flowers all over the house or birthday serenades—I’m indifferent to those."
Your past relationships had good and bad moments. What did the latest one teach you? "This just happened recently. I studied what went wrong and realized that love is love, but personality, lifestyle, and social circles all play a part. If there are 'red flags' that we can't accept, problems arise repeatedly. I chose to leave, which might be better for both of us. No matter how sad, we have to consider the long-term future so we don’t waste time. He doesn’t want to waste my time, and I don’t want to waste his. Love alone isn't enough because reality is complex."
At your age, who do you consult? "I talk a lot to myself and with close friends. I got over heartbreak quickly because I allowed myself to feel the pain fully and not bottle it up. When something happened, I talked about it. My friends were like trash bins. I even kept a diary noting the time and how I felt—waking up crying, trying to do this and that. When emotions peaked, I accepted it. In the end, I hurt alone and was alone."
After the breakup, I chose not to see my regular trainer and went to another gym because I didn’t want to talk or face anyone. When I looked at someone who cared, I couldn’t handle it. One day, someone noticed I didn’t look at anyone and kept my head down. I ran so fast it was like crying while sweating. My friends didn’t know why, but I couldn’t look anyone in the eye.
A friend once touched my shoulder, and I looked at them as if to say, 'Don’t look at me.' It lasted many days. I told people not to touch me or look me in the eyes. I always looked down. But I exercised every day to release energy, and afterward, I felt better and could eat.
Many people drink, party, or talk to others to forget, but eventually, you have to face yourself and feel the pain fully. I was like a music video heroine. I never thought I’d play 'True Love Doesn't Exist' by Potato and cry alone in my room. I opened the door, tears streamed down, and I recorded a video to remind myself, 'Punpun, you were this heartbroken. Remember that and don’t go back.'"
I wrote everything down—what made me happy, what didn’t, and why—because after a breakup, you only remember the good things. But I reminded myself why I chose to walk away. There was a period when my eyes were swollen, and I dunked my face in ice water (laughs). I looked rough for a while but had to come back strong.
Just yesterday, my father asked how I was. He seemed to want to know but I didn’t want to share my problems yet. I needed some time not to be too raw. My parents always say things that are always right. They seem to sense how I feel and see who is courting me. They can tell."
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